"Make You Feel My Love"
When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.
When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.
I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.
When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.
When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.
I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love.
I heard this song in the background of a random show I was watching while home sick today from my stomach flipping out due to a major anxiety attack I had at work and I had the thought to revisit the lyrics of this song. I started to imagine God speaking these very words to me, to my heart, to my insecurities and fears, doubts and weariness. In my mind, I can see God doing all that the song implies. Embracing me, doing all he can to comfort me and protect me, support and provide for me but there is one thing that keeps coming up in my mind:
Am I actually receiving all that He's giving me?
Will I...am I allowing God to give me a warm embrace or am I kicking and screaming in his arms like a child that just cut her knee? Unconsoleable and angry at the ground that hurt me. When I sit alone and cry at night, am I even looking at Him so that he can dry my tears? *sigh*
So often I see God the way I see man, untrustworthy, ready and willing to laugh at my pain and count me out if I don't fit their plan or opinion. God is saying I belong and that I can trust Him and its so hard to hear in a world where we strive to be accepted and disappointment is prevalent. He's done so much to show me He loves me and not just tell me. He went hungry, thirsty, was beaten black and blue, crawled down an "avenue" to declare his love for me.
Knowing all that was just stated, why is it so hard to receive the love? God's "love." God's "good." My friend Marie said to me today, "Stop being scared of good things." It's true. I'm scared of good things...terrified of good, profitable, blessed moments, people, and opportunities. I know how to function in the pit but not on the mountain peak. Hell, I have a hard time enjoying the plateaus.
All this to say, I'm learning. As uncomfortable and skittish this new process makes me, and OH IT DOES, being able to fully relish in the joy of the Lord and not just in his strength and mercy is the new season I'm in.
